What scares me the most about my current situation is that fact that I don't know the answer to that question. Why am I doing this? Do I want to keep dancing? Do I want a degree that says I can dance? Do I want a degree at all?
Right now all I want is to be home in my own bed and be able to hug my parents and yell at my little brother and have my mom make pancakes for breakfast. Just to be comfortable and know I don't have to worry about money or what I'm doing or who I'm going to be. To measure success by how many people I got to talk to in one day, how many chores I got done around the house. Not by auditions I could be but am not going to. Or NYC things I could be doing but am not.
I don't want to regret my time here. But, it's hard to LIVE in NYC and go to school here. You kind of have to pick. Either you are a student and you work and you study and you take a little time to live in New York, or you actually live here and work here and take New York in for all it has to offer.
It's frustrating working so hard at school...but for what?
