Oklahoma Breeze...

So here I am...back home for the summer. I gotta map out some goals or somethin' otherwise this will be a waste of 3 months. Word?

1. SAVE LOTS OF MONEY. So right now I have two jobs for sure...FC and this studio in Norman that I'm teaching at...but I also have this nasty habit of spending money. So I'm gonna need to learn to be happy with what I have and quit buying v-necks and boxing shoes. I can do this. I believe in myself.

2. GET REALLY GOOD AT SOMETHING I HATE. i.e. ballet. or maybe listening to my dad talk about airplanes. or perhaps quantum physics. something. I'll feel like I've accomplished something if I'm proficient at something that usually pisses me off.

3. SLEEP IN A LOT. enough said.

4. WORK OUT ON A REGULAR BASIS. this will probably impede on my 3rd goal...since I'll have to do it BEFORE going to work each morning. sacrifices must be made.

5. READ A LOT OF BOOKS. I'm in the middle of at least 4 right now. It would be really cool if I could finish a book before starting a new one. Really cool.

6. GO TO L.A. I'm pretty for sure going in August...so this is kind of just one of those things you put on your to do list cause you know you will be able to mark it off.

7. SEE SOME COOL SHIT IN OK. So I've lived here all my life...and was always convinced there was nothing cool. And while that is still pretty true there is a lot of interesting shit going on that I could at least take a look at...right?

Well...thats a good start I guess...we'll see how this works out.
PEACE.

Not the same anymore...

After last nights performance I realize how much I've grown and how my entire perception has changed about what dance is and should be. Not only was I not dancing to impress somebody else (judges, dance teachers, my parents), I realized that the only person I can ever attempt to impress, and probably never will, is myself.
It felt so good to be on a stage again...after 8 months of rehearsing in the studio and taking class everyday. I had almost forgotten why I dance. Sharing my passion, pain...everything. Being able to let it go and share something so personal with an audience. Making someone who has never seen "modern dance" cry because of the story being told. Moving because we want to move, without any rhyme or reason. Getting nervous before, forgetting everything else exists while on stage, the post performance adrenaline rush.
Two more performances today...and all I can think about is how to make myself more present.
How can I experience dance for the first time each time I walk on stage?

How can I experience life for the first time everyday?